In the past couple months, before every first date I've gone on, my mind always...I can't even get it out. fuck man. something about thinking it will be the last. I think I'm looking for something I can't find. And whenever it doesn't work, I start thinking about girls from my past and the great things about them. I'm not so worried. It's just a perspective I've never had before. Funny shit is though the two of us ended up at a YouTube party tonight with people performing who had been featured on YouTube. I don't think anyone with under a quarter of a million hits was allowed to perform. Wow! Fucking Internet Superstars. All in all hilarious.